So a lot has happened since about two weeks ago. I definitely fell in love harder than I think I have ever felt before. There have been times I have thought I have fallen in love, but not like this. It's not the same. It's like an overwhelming feeling like no other - like a melting sensation that grows over time...each passing day though it is harder and harder not to see the one that I really do love.
But that will soon change, that will soon change. It's got to. And I am convinced it will. Change takes time, I realize, even, sometimes small changes take time to come about. I made some new years resolutions, wrote them down and am very convinced that this year, this year will be different than any other. 2009 will mark many different and unusual things that will happen, but I hope for the best as always. There are just so many things running through my head. I want to go to school so badly and I want to be married to the man that I love and adore.
All in due time, is all I keep saying to myself. All in due time.
I def want to get back into writing again. I want to write and make words, make music w/ words, and motions w/ words and stories w/ words and make my mark w/ words. That's what I want probably more than anything. Get paid to make words.
:)
Well, that's it for now, I guess. Work is going well, Ken broke up with me, but that's ok.
I have someone new and it's for the best.
Truth is I have always had him. Just never knew it. And never knew I he had me at all. I want to make candles, but guess what? Berkeley County Lib. refuses to stock any good books. Every time I am in here, every subject I want is always not there :(
SO I have wait while they transfer them between the libraries and it sucks.
CANDLE MAKING BOOKS. Maybe I just need to look up craft books or something...geeze. I want some Mexican food right now, too. Hm. Sit down Mexican. Maybe w/ Cheryl. Who knows. Maybe by myself. Damn. I have to work tomorrow, both jobs, and then maybe I get to see my man. Maybe. That is if we get rid of the problem.
:( Life is a little hazy right now and I also have a cold. It just has been an unproductive day.
Ah well.
K
But that will soon change, that will soon change. It's got to. And I am convinced it will. Change takes time, I realize, even, sometimes small changes take time to come about. I made some new years resolutions, wrote them down and am very convinced that this year, this year will be different than any other. 2009 will mark many different and unusual things that will happen, but I hope for the best as always. There are just so many things running through my head. I want to go to school so badly and I want to be married to the man that I love and adore.
All in due time, is all I keep saying to myself. All in due time.
I def want to get back into writing again. I want to write and make words, make music w/ words, and motions w/ words and stories w/ words and make my mark w/ words. That's what I want probably more than anything. Get paid to make words.
:)
Well, that's it for now, I guess. Work is going well, Ken broke up with me, but that's ok.
I have someone new and it's for the best.
Truth is I have always had him. Just never knew it. And never knew I he had me at all. I want to make candles, but guess what? Berkeley County Lib. refuses to stock any good books. Every time I am in here, every subject I want is always not there :(
SO I have wait while they transfer them between the libraries and it sucks.
CANDLE MAKING BOOKS. Maybe I just need to look up craft books or something...geeze. I want some Mexican food right now, too. Hm. Sit down Mexican. Maybe w/ Cheryl. Who knows. Maybe by myself. Damn. I have to work tomorrow, both jobs, and then maybe I get to see my man. Maybe. That is if we get rid of the problem.
:( Life is a little hazy right now and I also have a cold. It just has been an unproductive day.
Ah well.
K
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