So I bought a car that same weekend...well...I did look at one that day. I actually purchased it on the fifteenth. A 2007 Nissan Versa in RED which I wanted. At least one of the main color choices. I also have been worrying more and more about my bills. I have so many credit cards, so many different accounts that need payments...I still have to live...ugh. I am currently dating one of the guys that attempted to sell me a car. His name is Josh and he and I get along pretty well together. But I just don't know yet where that will lead. Kristen moved out. Ashley moved out, too, although she only was there for like a matter of two weeks. Have to say having friends with a pool absolutely is excellent. :) I spent Friday night there, then spent Saturday doing some various stuff, I slept in which I never do because I had been up late...Sunday we took my little to the beach and we had a lot of fun, then work Monday which was dragging. I have so much to do here it's insane. I feel like I will never be on top of anything. My house is a mess, my fault, my half-ass job of painting is still needing work cuz I ran out of paint...the living room is a quote from Ashley, a Charleston green. I love the color. The other walls need to be done as well. All in time, all in time. OH well, there's plenty more talk where this came from. I threw my first sales party yesterday, about to list every spa/beauty item we carry on eBay to order for new clients and ship in. I love their products and can run a huge spiel on them. Hopefully, because I will be discounting a lot of the product or setting it a below retail price, we will get some more business. I have a listing of hair salons in the area, every flea market, every Charleston venue I can think of that would benefit my major marketing plan. But hey, for a couple hours of great fun, I made about sixty dollars :) Hopefully more where that came from....
Well at work, about to go back....must get stuff done....
Well at work, about to go back....must get stuff done....
- Mood:
cranky
HAHA. so will post something in the near future. Let's just say the whole "love" thing never works for me as it should...still care, still love, he just feels like he needs to "give her a second chance"...please. Spare me the BS. That's all it ever is for them anyways. Passed the insurance exam :) Been through some craziness, mainly feeling very let down by him and some others more recently in the last what, god, almighty, four months...
I just wish things were back to the way they used to be...god I wish. I worry about things more and for good reason...
but gots to go back to work...lol....tons of grocery shopping tonight and maybe looking at a car...maybe...if it stops being a pain and raining...
I just wish things were back to the way they used to be...god I wish. I worry about things more and for good reason...
but gots to go back to work...lol....tons of grocery shopping tonight and maybe looking at a car...maybe...if it stops being a pain and raining...
...by now you shoulda somehow realized what you're not to do. Valentine's day was yesterday, but I didn't end up spending it w/ anyone but my good friend Cici and some of it w/ Kristen when she was actually home. Me and Cici went to eat Jap food and get pierced. The night before I did get to see my loverface. But not for too long. It just sucks playing second pick. I mean, maybe not second pick, but he's got to take care of the at home situation before we can get together. I believe he wants to. It's just a hard situation. The things that he does say make me believe that he does care and love me. I love him. I really do. Yesterday, I got my belly button pierced...technically second go around since I had it done for a bit a few years back. It's got pink studs, its really little almost the size of an ear piercing. But not quite that tiny. It's cute and kind of sore now, but what I think is neat is just feeling the rod through the skin lol. I mean there's this metal rod through my navel. I can't wait to spend more time w/ him. I miss him more than words can express. It's hard to not think about him. He's always on my mind even while doing mundane things. It's going to be really nice to just see him day in and day out like normal couples do instead of illicit lovers that we are. That's what it feels like we are - illicit lovers, forbidden friends - aching to make more of it, but stuck somehow just beyond the brink of no-return. I hate that damned feeling. I hate being so close and yet feeling so far away from him. But I hope it will happen all at once and I will be swept up in the moments that we do share. I love sharing my moments w/ him. He's amazing, caring, loving, goal-oriented....and I miss him :( damn it.
Oh well. I guess good things come to those who wait right. ? I hope so.
I cleaned the bathroom yesterday, so it's good, scrubbed out the shower and everything. Watched some films, tried to write, but am kind of stuck in a rut, came on here to look at the old livejournal poems I wrote like 5 years ago. I can't believe it's been that long...ok, maybe more like four, but still...damn. Time passes when you are having fun lol. Anyways, better get to it. I want to publish something in the neat future. Yeah, me, that girl :)
K
- Mood:creative
like usual I am the Berkeley County Lib. typing away and excited because I am studying for my insurance license exam! that will hopefully mean more money and more freedom. I am also interested in starting a career developing company within the area. i ordered some business cards just to get my name out and bring about free business...bc it would be a nonprofit thing i would be going for if I did it...which means funding options and eeek. :)
Lots of time spent thinking about that. Businesses need start up capita, something I don't rightfully have right now. But maybe I will. I am going to look up nonprofit funding options online today and get some addresses and print off a few letters and just start like that...one step at a time and you can climb mountains eventually, right? Right. Today's the day I hope he tells her. I can't be certain he will, because it's a hard thing. But I can only hope. I am tired of feeling like i am locked up in a cage away from the person I love, yet they're right down the street. Not fair :(
Welp, got to get back to the studying. Have fifteen more pages to read... :)
K
- Mood:
calm
So a lot has happened since about two weeks ago. I definitely fell in love harder than I think I have ever felt before. There have been times I have thought I have fallen in love, but not like this. It's not the same. It's like an overwhelming feeling like no other - like a melting sensation that grows over time...each passing day though it is harder and harder not to see the one that I really do love.
But that will soon change, that will soon change. It's got to. And I am convinced it will. Change takes time, I realize, even, sometimes small changes take time to come about. I made some new years resolutions, wrote them down and am very convinced that this year, this year will be different than any other. 2009 will mark many different and unusual things that will happen, but I hope for the best as always. There are just so many things running through my head. I want to go to school so badly and I want to be married to the man that I love and adore.
All in due time, is all I keep saying to myself. All in due time.
I def want to get back into writing again. I want to write and make words, make music w/ words, and motions w/ words and stories w/ words and make my mark w/ words. That's what I want probably more than anything. Get paid to make words.
:)
Well, that's it for now, I guess. Work is going well, Ken broke up with me, but that's ok.
I have someone new and it's for the best.
Truth is I have always had him. Just never knew it. And never knew I he had me at all. I want to make candles, but guess what? Berkeley County Lib. refuses to stock any good books. Every time I am in here, every subject I want is always not there :(
SO I have wait while they transfer them between the libraries and it sucks.
CANDLE MAKING BOOKS. Maybe I just need to look up craft books or something...geeze. I want some Mexican food right now, too. Hm. Sit down Mexican. Maybe w/ Cheryl. Who knows. Maybe by myself. Damn. I have to work tomorrow, both jobs, and then maybe I get to see my man. Maybe. That is if we get rid of the problem.
:( Life is a little hazy right now and I also have a cold. It just has been an unproductive day.
Ah well.
K
But that will soon change, that will soon change. It's got to. And I am convinced it will. Change takes time, I realize, even, sometimes small changes take time to come about. I made some new years resolutions, wrote them down and am very convinced that this year, this year will be different than any other. 2009 will mark many different and unusual things that will happen, but I hope for the best as always. There are just so many things running through my head. I want to go to school so badly and I want to be married to the man that I love and adore.
All in due time, is all I keep saying to myself. All in due time.
I def want to get back into writing again. I want to write and make words, make music w/ words, and motions w/ words and stories w/ words and make my mark w/ words. That's what I want probably more than anything. Get paid to make words.
:)
Well, that's it for now, I guess. Work is going well, Ken broke up with me, but that's ok.
I have someone new and it's for the best.
Truth is I have always had him. Just never knew it. And never knew I he had me at all. I want to make candles, but guess what? Berkeley County Lib. refuses to stock any good books. Every time I am in here, every subject I want is always not there :(
SO I have wait while they transfer them between the libraries and it sucks.
CANDLE MAKING BOOKS. Maybe I just need to look up craft books or something...geeze. I want some Mexican food right now, too. Hm. Sit down Mexican. Maybe w/ Cheryl. Who knows. Maybe by myself. Damn. I have to work tomorrow, both jobs, and then maybe I get to see my man. Maybe. That is if we get rid of the problem.
:( Life is a little hazy right now and I also have a cold. It just has been an unproductive day.
Ah well.
K
- Mood:
crappy
Oh and while visiting NC, my car broke down and I had to spend nearly two hundred dollars on getting it fixed damn it! But the nicest people helped me out at Advanced Auto Parts and changed the alternator for me for free after getting a mechanic out there!!! So needless to say it was a memorable moment and I had fun with Jess/babies and I did see my family for a bit. I won't be home for Christmas though :( Just not enough time.
K
K
- Mood:
apathetic
...so there's more ;0 It has been a week or so since I last updated this thing.
So it's been a wild week again. Applied to Trident, am working on getting the transcripts over there, and now need to focus on financial aid which is taking me longer to apply to Fafsa than it should...am working so much this week. It's so insane....sixty-three hours between the two jobs. One is supposed to be a PT job though...eeek. I got tatted on Friday which was nice because he let me do it for less than we agreed on originally and it turned out so good! Just need to get it colored in :)
I got pulled over again today. I was driving down HLD when this cop pulls me over in the middle of my parking lot maybe fifty feet from my door...blue lights flashing...and I am like what the eff? I give my information and then I call my friend :)
He proceeds to call the other guy...lol.
And then he walks back to my car and is like, Miss, did you call somebody? And I am like yeah. And he asks why I did that. And I said cuz I can :)
He then asks if we are dating. And I am like no. And then I say he has a gf and I have a bf and say we are good friends. He leaves it at that.
Lol and says to slow it down and I got off with a warning.
Gotta love my friends :)
My bf and I are doing well. I just hope it's not gonna be like every other bf...
I am still working a ton though. I wanna pinch it down to only about 30 hours.
GOD. I hate work sometimes. It's so much sometimes if it's not at the office :)
Ok, let's rephrase that...I HATE RETAIL esp. during the HOLIDAYS.
Damn. Oh well.
I am working on my agent's license. I am studying for the broker's exam. I love just doing the insurance thing all day long. I just hope I can keep it up, the learning process. My brain needs time to expand.
Oh and everyone at work thinks I apparently slept with this guy that got fired to drinking on the job...and no one will talk to me over it and some people are completely ignoring me over it...because guess what? It's not true.
Ok. Time to wash face and go to bed.
So it's been a wild week again. Applied to Trident, am working on getting the transcripts over there, and now need to focus on financial aid which is taking me longer to apply to Fafsa than it should...am working so much this week. It's so insane....sixty-three hours between the two jobs. One is supposed to be a PT job though...eeek. I got tatted on Friday which was nice because he let me do it for less than we agreed on originally and it turned out so good! Just need to get it colored in :)
I got pulled over again today. I was driving down HLD when this cop pulls me over in the middle of my parking lot maybe fifty feet from my door...blue lights flashing...and I am like what the eff? I give my information and then I call my friend :)
He proceeds to call the other guy...lol.
And then he walks back to my car and is like, Miss, did you call somebody? And I am like yeah. And he asks why I did that. And I said cuz I can :)
He then asks if we are dating. And I am like no. And then I say he has a gf and I have a bf and say we are good friends. He leaves it at that.
Lol and says to slow it down and I got off with a warning.
Gotta love my friends :)
My bf and I are doing well. I just hope it's not gonna be like every other bf...
I am still working a ton though. I wanna pinch it down to only about 30 hours.
GOD. I hate work sometimes. It's so much sometimes if it's not at the office :)
Ok, let's rephrase that...I HATE RETAIL esp. during the HOLIDAYS.
Damn. Oh well.
I am working on my agent's license. I am studying for the broker's exam. I love just doing the insurance thing all day long. I just hope I can keep it up, the learning process. My brain needs time to expand.
Oh and everyone at work thinks I apparently slept with this guy that got fired to drinking on the job...and no one will talk to me over it and some people are completely ignoring me over it...because guess what? It's not true.
Ok. Time to wash face and go to bed.
- Mood: cold
So it's been about a week since I updated this thing. So a lot has happened since then.
I started my new job today, cleaned out the desk, put things where I wanted them attempted to dust and put things in an order I think i can remember them. I also got asked out, which considering most of the time, I seem to do the pursuing...that was neat. And I like him. I really do.
We'll see where this leads to. I never know and I try not to assume things either. About either me or him or what.
I am, I think, gonna really love this job. If I can just figure out what exactly defines me job duties, I think I can get through it. I quit Dillards. I no longer work there, yay :) No more sales quotas, no more weird customers...although I suppose I will have to deal with other weirdos in the insurance business.
So I am over at his house now, preparing for bed and tomorrow night I was supposed to get my tat covered up, but guess what the age is to get tatted in SC? 21. Stupid as F***. Oh well.
We'll see if he lets it slide or something. I hope so ;) I really want this tattoo covered up.
We are also having girl's night tomorrow night. YAY! I love girl's nights. They are great, getting drunik with the chicas. I hope I do not have to work Sunday. I know, of course, CTL, I won't have to be there until Monday morning. But as to Michaels, I don't know. I really hope I am not scheduled at 6A or some bullshit like that. That would suck ass like majorly. That would mean I can't relax and really have fun on Saturday night after working 9-3 and maybe getting tatted :) Cross fingers. I do not want to have to drive to NC to get it covered up.
:) Tomorrow's gonna be a blast. The last few nights have beennnn. WINK.
K
I started my new job today, cleaned out the desk, put things where I wanted them attempted to dust and put things in an order I think i can remember them. I also got asked out, which considering most of the time, I seem to do the pursuing...that was neat. And I like him. I really do.
We'll see where this leads to. I never know and I try not to assume things either. About either me or him or what.
I am, I think, gonna really love this job. If I can just figure out what exactly defines me job duties, I think I can get through it. I quit Dillards. I no longer work there, yay :) No more sales quotas, no more weird customers...although I suppose I will have to deal with other weirdos in the insurance business.
So I am over at his house now, preparing for bed and tomorrow night I was supposed to get my tat covered up, but guess what the age is to get tatted in SC? 21. Stupid as F***. Oh well.
We'll see if he lets it slide or something. I hope so ;) I really want this tattoo covered up.
We are also having girl's night tomorrow night. YAY! I love girl's nights. They are great, getting drunik with the chicas. I hope I do not have to work Sunday. I know, of course, CTL, I won't have to be there until Monday morning. But as to Michaels, I don't know. I really hope I am not scheduled at 6A or some bullshit like that. That would suck ass like majorly. That would mean I can't relax and really have fun on Saturday night after working 9-3 and maybe getting tatted :) Cross fingers. I do not want to have to drive to NC to get it covered up.
:) Tomorrow's gonna be a blast. The last few nights have beennnn. WINK.
K
- Mood:creative
...bout a month actually. this better go through since I am sitting at Berkeley County Library and sometimes I end up typing the whole thing out and it doesn't work. Eeek. So let's see....wedding in Fla was good, sort of didn't know anyone there, but spending time with the family was great :) Me and Mike. I don't know where we stand and I am honestly looking for someone who is slightly more focused on the future than on the next hit from his bong. C'mon. I need more stability than that. Although for the most part I do like him, it's just...I don't know. I think we are at diff. places in our l lives at the moment. I got the job with CT Lowndes and Co. Quit Dillards about a week ago :) So I did accomplish one thing before July on my list of many things...get a job there. Next step, get licensed. Be promoted and move into my own office. One step at a time. And that could take some time honestly.
Today I got my brakes worked on. Run smooth as silk now. The rotors were just a lil bit warped. Only cost me sixty and I was thinking I was gonna be paying about 150-200 for them to work good again :) So I drove the Citadel Mall today and bought the pants from Cache that I am crazy about. Gerald's Tire was a decent place to go to. A little sketchy looking out front. But people were really nice.
Halloween was interesting...lol. We (Kristen, Becky, Me) went to an outside Halloween bonfire party right, dressed as "jungle queens"....we had only been there a bit, my car was parked in someone else's yard so me and Kristen went to move it. Just as we are walking away from the party, three officers stroll up and are like, how old are you and why are you dressed that way, it's cold. Ridgeville Police. We tell them our age, he says make your drinks and hide the liquor. After that incident though and him talking about a sixteen year old kid with a bunch of alcohol in his car, we hightailed it out of there thinking that they were gonna break up the party (which they didn't...but still). We left, handed Becky's keys to someone else, and we headed back to Charleston. Well, while in the car, Aunt Flow decides to visit and I start freaking cuz there is nothing in the car with which to stop it with. We end up taking some of the leopard print fabric (we all bought a yard or two to make our costumes) and stuffing in my panties and found a 24/7 Summerville CVS in which we bought feminine products. AHHH. I drop her off, I change (thank god I had clean panties in the car) and crash at home to wake up early to work again... :(
I also voted for the first time at Goose Creek HS. Out of this world lines, what a pain in the ass.
But it was worth it, I guess. I put my two cents in.
The other night I was at this gas station and these random guys just decide (two different vehicles) to tell me that I "look amazing" and the other guy said something to the extent of "you're beautiful"....I felt like I looked like shit at that moment. What a pick up to the self-esteem. They weren't cracked out or anything. I just don't pick up men from gas stations. Get me to the bar first lol. It was weird bc most guys just stare they don't say, excuse me a moment all politely and tell you that you look nice today :)
Gonna start transforming the room with the new job and working on getting a new car. Developing new friendships as I go, making new ones and cultivating new and old ones. I just love my friends :) here and in NC.
I really want to go back to the school in the spring for business. (assoc. degree) and then see where that takes me from there. I want to work in a corporate HR dept. hopefully, maybe Michaels. Maybe not :) Who knows.
I give up on the nursing idea. Trident has a wait for two years. No way hose am I going two years to do what would take me another three to accomplish. SO business it is. Maybe that will contribute to the insurance job as well in the future. My throat is starting to hurt and my wisdom teeth are making my whole mouth ache. I need to go to the dentist for that soon. And the GYNO. It's time for that, actually past due for that. I also bought a pair of the nicest pants from Cache today (Citadel) that are gonna be great for the new job. Need a few more nice blouses and then we'll be set to look good and work hard.
Tanning salon is right next door, too. Lol. That is not a good thing. I will be in there all the time spending money on tanning, nails, hair. :) It's seriously like 10 ft. away ;) Yippee.
Well gotta go. This computer is timed.
Cross fingers on love life. I can't state here who I really want. It's kind of taboo.
Well, not really...just older and all of that.
But I don't care.
I like it :)
K
- Mood: thankful
So eh. it's been a while. I know this. I am so bad at keeping this journal-thingy. A lot has happened since I last journaled in this thing. First of all, I met Michael I. at the park one rainy Charleston day. I don't know if that was good or a bad thing. Because about a week later, around 2 AM, my car disappeared for a few hours until four the next day causing me to miss my shadow day at David's Bridal because weirdly enough, I got recruited for there through my customer service expertise (hahahaha) at Dillards. I helped the assistant manager find a dress and consequently I was contacted via work telephone to come in for an interview. But anyhoo. My car was returned finally. But not after calling the police and highway patrol and sheriff's dep. Two officers came to my door on that night to take my story down and well, ended up being there for about three hours...one of the cops (we'll call him J) was actually from High Point, NC and stayed on the same damn road I had been living off of and knew the same person I had been staying with...went to HS with the kid at that...how strange....and so that led to more conversation about NC and High Point and people in general. That in itself was weird enough. The David's Bridal thing, the car being "stolen" thing, and everything else....Mike claims there was a road block on 78 and that he could not return the car because he's unlicensed and they would've impounded the vehicle...which is most likely true. I also have given up on work dude...cute gay one...he's def gay and that sucks...but oh well. I don't know what me and Mike are. I am not sure now because he didn't return to his house last night while I was there and he still wasn't there at midnight. Keep in mind he has to be at work at five everyday. And I have no idea where he was last night. He hasn't answered phone calls tonight and I am ready to say screw it if I never hear from him again. Cheryl and I are working on getting our insurance licenses. I am buying a textbook pretty soon off of Brewer Insurance School and then we will take the exam and hopefully pass with eachother's help. I am very excited about that oppurtunity. I apparently have a secret admirer from Primerica. He was in Dillards a few weeks back and asked about to me to another associate. He is supposedly very beautiful ;) If I need an insurance job and State Farm wont hire us we will go there :) Hahahaha. :) Who knows. Might be the beginning of a blossoming relationship. Andy has also been a real friend lately. He's encouraged me to keep pushing on. And I know that with God's help, anything is possible. He opens up the doors, I just have to walk in them. I finally got my driver's license and my SC insurance, too. Now all that's left is to get the car registered. AHHHH. More moolah. I don't have. SECU also froze my account bc I am behind about two payments for my loan. This sucks ass, but I am convinced it will get better. I am also tutoring through Tutoring 4 U which has been most rewarding. I have a class coming up with computer basics and I am excited to start that one :) I did algebra with an Air Force woman and was greatly pleased with some of the class results. I might stay at Dillards if they can work me three twelve hour shifts at a time. That would be great. Then I could work somewhere else as well and get health insurance through Michaels or Dillards. Also Google is putting a new corporate building in and I am going to apply either for security or secretarial work. I also would like to do Michaels corporate if possible. I am also receiving tuition money back from ACC and I am sending off my notary public application tomorrow...cross fingers...that will help in the insurance biz. Well, that's about it....will try to update this thing more often because I hate losing memories. Tomorrow, my fam is coming for a bit here and then we are going to Fla for my cousin's wedding. I am just excited to be on vacay but not excited to be behind on bills....eeekkk...Oh well. We'll see what happens. If anything, I will get a job at Fatz Cafe and pull in da tips :) I also think I probably need to drop Chem class until I can get more financially stable. That is probably best. I didn't accomplish much this semester, but maybe next :( Bye for now.
- Mood: cheerful
By now you should've somehow realized what you're not to do :(
Still on the mad job hunt. I can almost taste it, just need to get going with enough momentum to keep me rolling...I need to make some more cash so I can start enjoying my down time as well instead of spending it worrying about what our next move is gonna be as far as moolah is concerned. Worked today 11-6, but it ended up being til 7:30 because they were doing inventory shit tomorrow and wanted the truck up today. So yeah...I helped with that as much as I could. I am just so tired right now. The other night, after the party with Cori (which ended up with some young drunk buck kissing me on the mouth... :), I slept fourteen hours, one from sheet exhaustion and two from I think a massive headache (close to what one would call a migraine). Ah. That is the longest I have slept in a longass time. I have not had time to sleep that long. :) I go into work the next several days and work through the whole day...12-9,12-9,11-9, and ending with 5-10pm on Sat. at Michaels. I just cannot live off of 300 bucks a week. Not happening. I can't afford to do anything I want to do. Bah. We can barely afford to feed ourselves let alone make credit card payments, car insurance payments, etc.
No luck with dude at work :) I think he's official you know yeah.
New neighbor next door is awfully cute. But he seems kind of stuck up in a way. So I might just leave him alone because I don't have time for that shit. Nor due I have time for douche bags named Tim. Or other douche bags of that nature :) Seems like all I run into are DBs. Yuck. Use one (as Jesska would say), don't be one. I am leaving men alone for the time being. Yes ma'am. Taking a break. A lady from work was trying to hook me up with her son today...funny :) I enjoy being single, but I would enjoy a date or two.
Ya know. And what else follows...:) No, really, I will try to good. Seriously. I will, but you can't expect me to hold out FOREVER and a day :)
Work at Dillards is going all right, I guess, getting more hours....we'll see what goes on with that :)
I hope something soon. GRRRRRRRR. I need to write some poetry too or something. Sell some freakin candle tarts or something. :)
Kay, I need to be in a better mood. Lately, I have been in a better mood, but it's slowly working it's way down again....smoking a lot more, too. Need to quit that shit fast. Oh well.......
Still on the mad job hunt. I can almost taste it, just need to get going with enough momentum to keep me rolling...I need to make some more cash so I can start enjoying my down time as well instead of spending it worrying about what our next move is gonna be as far as moolah is concerned. Worked today 11-6, but it ended up being til 7:30 because they were doing inventory shit tomorrow and wanted the truck up today. So yeah...I helped with that as much as I could. I am just so tired right now. The other night, after the party with Cori (which ended up with some young drunk buck kissing me on the mouth... :), I slept fourteen hours, one from sheet exhaustion and two from I think a massive headache (close to what one would call a migraine). Ah. That is the longest I have slept in a longass time. I have not had time to sleep that long. :) I go into work the next several days and work through the whole day...12-9,12-9,11-9, and ending with 5-10pm on Sat. at Michaels. I just cannot live off of 300 bucks a week. Not happening. I can't afford to do anything I want to do. Bah. We can barely afford to feed ourselves let alone make credit card payments, car insurance payments, etc.
No luck with dude at work :) I think he's official you know yeah.
New neighbor next door is awfully cute. But he seems kind of stuck up in a way. So I might just leave him alone because I don't have time for that shit. Nor due I have time for douche bags named Tim. Or other douche bags of that nature :) Seems like all I run into are DBs. Yuck. Use one (as Jesska would say), don't be one. I am leaving men alone for the time being. Yes ma'am. Taking a break. A lady from work was trying to hook me up with her son today...funny :) I enjoy being single, but I would enjoy a date or two.
Ya know. And what else follows...:) No, really, I will try to good. Seriously. I will, but you can't expect me to hold out FOREVER and a day :)
Work at Dillards is going all right, I guess, getting more hours....we'll see what goes on with that :)
I hope something soon. GRRRRRRRR. I need to write some poetry too or something. Sell some freakin candle tarts or something. :)
Kay, I need to be in a better mood. Lately, I have been in a better mood, but it's slowly working it's way down again....smoking a lot more, too. Need to quit that shit fast. Oh well.......
- Mood:awake
so today was ok. kind of boring. picked out an outfit for fashion show tomorrow, pretty pink, gray, and black. And am looking forward to this week being over so i can have a day off. i am so ready for one of those. collette is sleeping beside me and she looks pretty wiped out. i am achy, but i feel the need to explore my surroundings. still have crush on this guy. wish i didn't. wish it would go away. bought an outfit for work that's a little more skin-tight to show off a little bit of curvage. maybe that will be arousing, maybe not. who knows ?!
I like the outfit, esp. the slacks. they show off the curve of my ass pretty damn well. not really fond of pants that don't however.
soooooo...wanna take another walk on Isle of Palms, love that beach at night. love it love it love it. :)
i hope my friend will be able to go with me because collette is about to pass out :)
and i am not going east by myself.
:) wish i were superman :)
oh wait, scratch that. superWoman.
oh wait, I AM :)
work dragged by today, but i kept pretty busy. wish i could make more money doing it though. need to find a better job....
one that pays more moolah would be nice. could use a hell of a lot more of that. need to find out where it grows and pluck it like a juicy plum.
one day, my friend, one day. i wanna run on the damn beach. some one needs to come with me :)
i could also use sleep for tomorrow. but nah...
i wanna run, run, run, run, away from it all, into the fall of another daybreak where you're waiting with open arms to catch me as i run, run, run, run from it all....will update on guy situation, need to get a pic for cici and need to work on some arts and crafts projects. oh and looking for another J-O-B :)
K
I like the outfit, esp. the slacks. they show off the curve of my ass pretty damn well. not really fond of pants that don't however.
soooooo...wanna take another walk on Isle of Palms, love that beach at night. love it love it love it. :)
i hope my friend will be able to go with me because collette is about to pass out :)
and i am not going east by myself.
:) wish i were superman :)
oh wait, scratch that. superWoman.
oh wait, I AM :)
work dragged by today, but i kept pretty busy. wish i could make more money doing it though. need to find a better job....
one that pays more moolah would be nice. could use a hell of a lot more of that. need to find out where it grows and pluck it like a juicy plum.
one day, my friend, one day. i wanna run on the damn beach. some one needs to come with me :)
i could also use sleep for tomorrow. but nah...
i wanna run, run, run, run, away from it all, into the fall of another daybreak where you're waiting with open arms to catch me as i run, run, run, run from it all....will update on guy situation, need to get a pic for cici and need to work on some arts and crafts projects. oh and looking for another J-O-B :)
K
- Mood:
pensive
Today was pretty good. I got up at 9 AM and we did some errand shit, like pay bills and get money orders for bills and go to the library and check out Stephen King books that we ended up reading and falling asleep to :) We both are very tired lately. I think because of the floor and we did get some futon mattresses today to sleep on so that's a start. We also swung on some swings in the Casey Community Center in Goose Creek. That was fun, just dicking around and being stupid. I love those days and these lazy days of summer. I have to go back to work from 11-8 pm tomorrow. I really have to go into work. I can't afford to not work unfortunately :( I really need to find a different job though with better hours and BETTER money so we can actually afford to do stuff :) Yay!
Collette has tomorrow off and I wish I did too. That way we could actually spend some time together. We haven't really had a chance to spend some time together as much because we both work so much. I hate that. But it's necessary. It's either working or spending time with peeps.
Which is cool. I just wish I had more time to explore. It feels like I live at freaking Northwoods Mall :)
I made our courtesy cop a tootsie roll basket today from stuff found at Michaels, it really turned out good. There were so many tootsie rolls in it. Honestly, I can't stand tootsie rolls. But he loves em. So more power to him.
:) Dave and her are still doing good and she's sitting on the floor painting her toe nails, looking contemplative.
Some days, I feel like life is going on in a dream. And yet, it's the real deal honey. One day, I feel like I will wake up like Sleeping Beauty to find that the world is very different than it was when I went to sleep.
When I was about sixteen, I kept up with a live journal and it was really quite morose sounding. I was a depressed 16-year old sadly enough. I could've done more then for myself, but I let it fester. Like a sore.
So we won't go into all that now. I want to journal mainly to keep up with our adventures. We have so much to accomplish :)
And it's a beautiful life. Truly, we just have to wake up to that.
That's all for now. I think we are going to the beach tonight. :)
K
P.S. All bills are paid for ex. for my insurance bill and our fridge is full for once ;) The insurance bill is teeny-tiny compared to some of the other ones. So hoorah!
Collette has tomorrow off and I wish I did too. That way we could actually spend some time together. We haven't really had a chance to spend some time together as much because we both work so much. I hate that. But it's necessary. It's either working or spending time with peeps.
Which is cool. I just wish I had more time to explore. It feels like I live at freaking Northwoods Mall :)
I made our courtesy cop a tootsie roll basket today from stuff found at Michaels, it really turned out good. There were so many tootsie rolls in it. Honestly, I can't stand tootsie rolls. But he loves em. So more power to him.
:) Dave and her are still doing good and she's sitting on the floor painting her toe nails, looking contemplative.
Some days, I feel like life is going on in a dream. And yet, it's the real deal honey. One day, I feel like I will wake up like Sleeping Beauty to find that the world is very different than it was when I went to sleep.
When I was about sixteen, I kept up with a live journal and it was really quite morose sounding. I was a depressed 16-year old sadly enough. I could've done more then for myself, but I let it fester. Like a sore.
So we won't go into all that now. I want to journal mainly to keep up with our adventures. We have so much to accomplish :)
And it's a beautiful life. Truly, we just have to wake up to that.
That's all for now. I think we are going to the beach tonight. :)
K
P.S. All bills are paid for ex. for my insurance bill and our fridge is full for once ;) The insurance bill is teeny-tiny compared to some of the other ones. So hoorah!
- Mood: exhausted
So today was pretty good. I made 1100 dollars in sales, mostly because the costumer for Army Wives (the tv show ) came in and bought 500 dollars worth of dresses ! ;) Yay!
My ticket was also taken care of :) So I don't have to go to court tomorrow and I can have a freakin day off :) Hooray!
I am just really tired of sleeping on the damn floor. My body hurts all the fuckin time and I feel exhausted most days. It's just hard to pull through and I feel like throwing my hands up some days and just crying for a bit. It probably would help me, but at the same time, I don't feel like crying. I feel like pushing on. I feel like being a strong woman. I think therefore I am kind of shit. Oh well.
So I feel like most men I meet are either married, gay, or seriously assholes. Oh my god. Why can't I meet someone I am very attracted to who isn't one of the above? I have a crush on a freaking gay guy! How sad is that? He really doesn't come off as gay, but apparently he is and has been for a long time. Isn't teetering on the border. He is gay. Plain and simple. He just looks at me the way a straight man would. That's all. That's what gets me. He doesn't play the part very well. And I would totally do him if he wasn't.
Maybe I can turn him. Hahahaha. Right.
And turn him into a straight plain-out asshole is probably what it would do if it did happen.
So I need to work on finding a different palette of men. A different array. Not bar scenes. Not club scenes.
Not any scenes. Just bump into me through someone way, kind of offhand, like each other, but kind of not, until one day, we just realize we fit like the pieces of a puzzle.
Hahahahaha. Again, fantasy world ;)
I need to get my head out of the clouds and back down to earth a little bit here.
And I really do not need a man to make me happy. I don't. I need myself to be strong. And maybe later on down the road, I will meet someone who is like that as well.
Oh well. I still can't help being attracted to what I see. It's human nature. I just wish he wasn't. That's all. It would make a nicer picture in my head....
But he is. So I will try to get over it now. Like so many others....
Collette and I probably will go grocery shopping tomorrow aka. maybe house shopping. Just depends on what our financial status is at that point. We really need some house stuff. We are sorely low on that.
We need to go to the beach. But I think we are just too tired to do that tonight. I was gonna go if Cheryl was up for it. But she's not.
So night night.
:( Need to go pay some damn bills.
We need to erase that word from the dictionary.
K
My ticket was also taken care of :) So I don't have to go to court tomorrow and I can have a freakin day off :) Hooray!
I am just really tired of sleeping on the damn floor. My body hurts all the fuckin time and I feel exhausted most days. It's just hard to pull through and I feel like throwing my hands up some days and just crying for a bit. It probably would help me, but at the same time, I don't feel like crying. I feel like pushing on. I feel like being a strong woman. I think therefore I am kind of shit. Oh well.
So I feel like most men I meet are either married, gay, or seriously assholes. Oh my god. Why can't I meet someone I am very attracted to who isn't one of the above? I have a crush on a freaking gay guy! How sad is that? He really doesn't come off as gay, but apparently he is and has been for a long time. Isn't teetering on the border. He is gay. Plain and simple. He just looks at me the way a straight man would. That's all. That's what gets me. He doesn't play the part very well. And I would totally do him if he wasn't.
Maybe I can turn him. Hahahaha. Right.
And turn him into a straight plain-out asshole is probably what it would do if it did happen.
So I need to work on finding a different palette of men. A different array. Not bar scenes. Not club scenes.
Not any scenes. Just bump into me through someone way, kind of offhand, like each other, but kind of not, until one day, we just realize we fit like the pieces of a puzzle.
Hahahahaha. Again, fantasy world ;)
I need to get my head out of the clouds and back down to earth a little bit here.
And I really do not need a man to make me happy. I don't. I need myself to be strong. And maybe later on down the road, I will meet someone who is like that as well.
Oh well. I still can't help being attracted to what I see. It's human nature. I just wish he wasn't. That's all. It would make a nicer picture in my head....
But he is. So I will try to get over it now. Like so many others....
Collette and I probably will go grocery shopping tomorrow aka. maybe house shopping. Just depends on what our financial status is at that point. We really need some house stuff. We are sorely low on that.
We need to go to the beach. But I think we are just too tired to do that tonight. I was gonna go if Cheryl was up for it. But she's not.
So night night.
:( Need to go pay some damn bills.
We need to erase that word from the dictionary.
K
...so worked today from 11:30-3:30 at the Michaels store in N Charleston. Pretty good day, went by quick. But the one person that I did want to see there wasn't there. So that kind of sucked. Because I actually dressed up a little today, you know, wore a bra and did my makeup ;) Ah well. Soon enough. There's no rushing these things now is there?
I think he feels the same way. But I could be totally off. I read people pretty good. But some people are hard to read, of course, so this may be a hit and miss big time thing. Esp. since I don't talk to him all that often. I just see what I see. I have to say I like what I see. But that doesn't mean I have to go after it like I always do. Maybe I will let it sit and fester and just wonder.
Sometimes that's best of all. To wait. And not rush things too much.
Tonight we have a meeting from 6-9. Kind of sucks a little bc I really didn't work there today but I have to be there anyways. Oh well. On a "day off" I have to still work a total of 7 hours. I did get plenty of rest last night. But this floor is starting to drive me and Cici crazy. You wake up feeling like you were hit with a big truck. Even though I slept like 12 hours last night it really probably only amounted to like 4 hours of deep REM sleep. Seriously was dreaming though. I did dream some pretty naughty stuff last night and I do remember it. So that means that part was deep and undisturbed. I think.... :)
I have to get a driver's license this week before Thursday bc Thursday is a court date for the two tickets and my birth certificate should be here tomorrow. If not, I am basically screwed unless the cop next door can take care of the ticket for me by talking to the cop that issued my tickets. So hopefully, he will be able to take care of it for me. I will buy him anything tootsie roll he wants :) Its totally screwing with my head. I am not paying for that when I was only here 8 days in before being issued a ticket for not having a SC driver's license.
And for not having a registration or proof of insurance on me. Or really anything. I had a NC license. That's about it. And that was old too.
And I was kind of doing 60 in a 45. So yeah... :)
On my way to Moncks Corner to chill out with some peeps. I was so utterly pissed. I have never had a ticket before in my life.
But there is a time for everything...
Every time I sleep in someone else's bed, I feel so much better the next morning. I totally do not wanna get out of the bed with them. I want to stay there forever. Or at least til Monday :)
Oh well. I need some new clothes too. And a new bed. And so does Cici. A mattress would even be nice.
I want some really nice business clothes to wear to work. Some dresses mainly. Dresses make me feel very sexalicious. As they should for every woman.
All in time is all I can say to myself. Time changes all things.
We'll see what goes on with work boy. I think he likes me too. Who knows though. It's also work. That can create bad vibes.
Anyways.
Ciao, K
P.S. I love you Cici :)
I think he feels the same way. But I could be totally off. I read people pretty good. But some people are hard to read, of course, so this may be a hit and miss big time thing. Esp. since I don't talk to him all that often. I just see what I see. I have to say I like what I see. But that doesn't mean I have to go after it like I always do. Maybe I will let it sit and fester and just wonder.
Sometimes that's best of all. To wait. And not rush things too much.
Tonight we have a meeting from 6-9. Kind of sucks a little bc I really didn't work there today but I have to be there anyways. Oh well. On a "day off" I have to still work a total of 7 hours. I did get plenty of rest last night. But this floor is starting to drive me and Cici crazy. You wake up feeling like you were hit with a big truck. Even though I slept like 12 hours last night it really probably only amounted to like 4 hours of deep REM sleep. Seriously was dreaming though. I did dream some pretty naughty stuff last night and I do remember it. So that means that part was deep and undisturbed. I think.... :)
I have to get a driver's license this week before Thursday bc Thursday is a court date for the two tickets and my birth certificate should be here tomorrow. If not, I am basically screwed unless the cop next door can take care of the ticket for me by talking to the cop that issued my tickets. So hopefully, he will be able to take care of it for me. I will buy him anything tootsie roll he wants :) Its totally screwing with my head. I am not paying for that when I was only here 8 days in before being issued a ticket for not having a SC driver's license.
And for not having a registration or proof of insurance on me. Or really anything. I had a NC license. That's about it. And that was old too.
And I was kind of doing 60 in a 45. So yeah... :)
On my way to Moncks Corner to chill out with some peeps. I was so utterly pissed. I have never had a ticket before in my life.
But there is a time for everything...
Every time I sleep in someone else's bed, I feel so much better the next morning. I totally do not wanna get out of the bed with them. I want to stay there forever. Or at least til Monday :)
Oh well. I need some new clothes too. And a new bed. And so does Cici. A mattress would even be nice.
I want some really nice business clothes to wear to work. Some dresses mainly. Dresses make me feel very sexalicious. As they should for every woman.
All in time is all I can say to myself. Time changes all things.
We'll see what goes on with work boy. I think he likes me too. Who knows though. It's also work. That can create bad vibes.
Anyways.
Ciao, K
P.S. I love you Cici :)
- Mood:
anxious
So haven't done this journaling thing in a longass time. We will see how this goes. I am really bad about keeping up with these things and usually I lose track of them. Like the lost marbles in my head again :) And again :0 Always losing something it seems. Myself. Or these thoughts. But oh well. I didn't start this thing to journal about serious issues. I just moved. I am in a completely new area. And I love this new adventure. New things come my way all the time. I want to establish myself in these new things and ride the waves of novelty. :)
We arrived here about a month ago now. I got my first speeding ticket, first department store job, first "home", first new lover, etc. There is a lot of news, nothing too completely exciting, just a lot of news. New friends, new people, new jobs, new stores, new everything :) This new stuff, at times, kind of scares me shitless. But at the same time, it's a good scare. It's awesome to be able to do whatever I want whenever I want to do it to a degree, less money, I work at a Dillards (for now) in the Junior's dept. and a Michaels arts and crafts store (pt). Dillards is a full-time position and so far, I love it. I just don't love the money or the way they run the sales quotas. But I love merchandising and I love helping people. And that is definitely something I am good at. I am gonna have to find something with better money. We have like no furniture and no beds right now. We've been sleeping on the floor on comforters in our very cute, but very empty town house. So I def want beds and couches and chairs and rugs and wall hangings and frames and loads of shit to make this house a home. Our home. It's like my homeless stint only less furniture and I do have a place to call home. Today I woke up at 10 AM, went into work at eleven while munching down the rest of the chicken from Applebees the night before, which, might I add, was partially free bc the waitress cashed out the ticket instead of charged it. The meal was completely taken care of, but Collette had 20 dollars cash and I urged her to let the girl take it bc the meal was coming out of her tips or her hourly pay. So really a forty-dollar meal was twenty dollars - I feel bad. That really sucks for her. But anyways. I went to work and redid the Juniors dressy section. It looks amazing now, Organized. Pretty. Full. I did a pretty damn good job if I do say so myself. My boss was pleased. Other than that, 400 dollars is also missing from one of my registers the other night, Which I didn't take. Which means someone in the cash office is a dirty whore. Oh well. I better not get blamed for it because that's some bullshit. I am a very honest employee. I worked till seven and tried on a ton of clothes I can't afford. Some sexy clothes, stuff I would so wear out in a heartbeat. Ended up buying this undergarment that acts as a shaper, holds in the boobs and the food baby :) Naturally, would have liked to buy more. But went home, Collette and I bought taco bell and went to rite aid to buy toilet paper and paper towels and I got cash back for her from the night before for the food since I was planning to pay for the meal, We hadn't eaten out in fuckin forever. And we work so hard with usually nothing to show for it at all. It kind of sucks. But oh well. We get over it. It's life right now. And I know it will get better, We are two pretty determined young women. I am fuckin stubborn as shit, I don't back down very easily. So I will find a better job, a better lifestyle, one that works for me and for her. And we will make this work. We have come too far to give up now. We're here a year and we are making the best of it. I might also get promoted at Michaels to dept. manager which means much better money and we will def be living better if that happens. And I might even get my sexy new car :) Who knows :) So tired tonight, Have tomorrow off, need to go help with laundry before my foot goes completely asleep and I fall over when I stand up :) I also got a job offer at AC Moore for a M-F job with pretty good hourly wage. We'll see about that. If he can get close to eleven an hour, I will see what I can work out. That's an awesome schedule. I love weekends off. :)
Collette and her David are doing good :) I love my COLLETTE :)
Anyways. Nuff for tonight. My foot is officially asleep. :)
K
We arrived here about a month ago now. I got my first speeding ticket, first department store job, first "home", first new lover, etc. There is a lot of news, nothing too completely exciting, just a lot of news. New friends, new people, new jobs, new stores, new everything :) This new stuff, at times, kind of scares me shitless. But at the same time, it's a good scare. It's awesome to be able to do whatever I want whenever I want to do it to a degree, less money, I work at a Dillards (for now) in the Junior's dept. and a Michaels arts and crafts store (pt). Dillards is a full-time position and so far, I love it. I just don't love the money or the way they run the sales quotas. But I love merchandising and I love helping people. And that is definitely something I am good at. I am gonna have to find something with better money. We have like no furniture and no beds right now. We've been sleeping on the floor on comforters in our very cute, but very empty town house. So I def want beds and couches and chairs and rugs and wall hangings and frames and loads of shit to make this house a home. Our home. It's like my homeless stint only less furniture and I do have a place to call home. Today I woke up at 10 AM, went into work at eleven while munching down the rest of the chicken from Applebees the night before, which, might I add, was partially free bc the waitress cashed out the ticket instead of charged it. The meal was completely taken care of, but Collette had 20 dollars cash and I urged her to let the girl take it bc the meal was coming out of her tips or her hourly pay. So really a forty-dollar meal was twenty dollars - I feel bad. That really sucks for her. But anyways. I went to work and redid the Juniors dressy section. It looks amazing now, Organized. Pretty. Full. I did a pretty damn good job if I do say so myself. My boss was pleased. Other than that, 400 dollars is also missing from one of my registers the other night, Which I didn't take. Which means someone in the cash office is a dirty whore. Oh well. I better not get blamed for it because that's some bullshit. I am a very honest employee. I worked till seven and tried on a ton of clothes I can't afford. Some sexy clothes, stuff I would so wear out in a heartbeat. Ended up buying this undergarment that acts as a shaper, holds in the boobs and the food baby :) Naturally, would have liked to buy more. But went home, Collette and I bought taco bell and went to rite aid to buy toilet paper and paper towels and I got cash back for her from the night before for the food since I was planning to pay for the meal, We hadn't eaten out in fuckin forever. And we work so hard with usually nothing to show for it at all. It kind of sucks. But oh well. We get over it. It's life right now. And I know it will get better, We are two pretty determined young women. I am fuckin stubborn as shit, I don't back down very easily. So I will find a better job, a better lifestyle, one that works for me and for her. And we will make this work. We have come too far to give up now. We're here a year and we are making the best of it. I might also get promoted at Michaels to dept. manager which means much better money and we will def be living better if that happens. And I might even get my sexy new car :) Who knows :) So tired tonight, Have tomorrow off, need to go help with laundry before my foot goes completely asleep and I fall over when I stand up :) I also got a job offer at AC Moore for a M-F job with pretty good hourly wage. We'll see about that. If he can get close to eleven an hour, I will see what I can work out. That's an awesome schedule. I love weekends off. :)
Collette and her David are doing good :) I love my COLLETTE :)
Anyways. Nuff for tonight. My foot is officially asleep. :)
K
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bouncy
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